Recovery?

Hey guys!

Sorry it's been so long. I've had a few interesting months. I was hospitalized then went to residential for about 5-6 weeks. I just discharged this past week. I'm struggling. I mean I'm really struggling. I don't know if I'm ready for recovery. I stepped on the scale today. I'm skipping every other meal. I just don't know if I can do this. I want to be able to, but idk. Maybe I don't want it enough.

Anyways, short post just to let you all know I'm alive and still kicking. And to sort of get my thoughts out. Any advice would be much appreciated!!!